mi ish reali crazee liao. no long going crazee. mi wud b lost fer words soon. in daze. expressionless.
sori. ish sounding reali EMO here. bt i juz nid to complain if nt i tink i wud get depression. =X
reali wish i cud go shoppingg.. out wif frenz/hubby.. overseas.. slack. be free of all tings. nth to worried abt. bt i guez its gna b hard. i wish i cud b da happi go lucky kind = "canot work? aiya.. juz heck care la. doesnt affect mi!" kind of ppl. bt im NOT! i worry terribly over stuff lyk tis. all kinds of qns wud go thru my mind. tts mi.. i cant help it.
heard frm my sup that i wud needa present to the director in ard 2 to 3 wks time? its lyk WTH.. WTF. wat m i gna present? my stuff arent working. im trying my VERY VERY BEZ. bt it doesnt work. m i lack of luck or m i juz toopid? i reali wonder. da others r able to complete their proj or at least complete part of their projects. i have done.. hardly half of it? stuck at part one.. which was said to be easy by the client. IM DUMB.
Im reali trying my v bez to stay cheerful. nt to tink so much. nt to show it out. bt its HARD. im sorry. feel reali guilty fer being tis way. i noe frenz n all wud b worried abt mi. sighx..
i shall try my bez.. all i wish fer is sum luck. sum hope. smth i can look forward to. to gif mi confidence to continue on........